Monday, March 27, 2006

Catching Up

Has it really been a month since I posted last?? Amazing how time flies when you're having fun. :) Life is good.

I'm happier and more content than I've ever been. It's a relaxing feeling that washes over me. It's support and backing, but also it's the gut feeling that I can do it. Whatever "it" may be. (now I'm starting to sound like an eBay commercial.) Maybe that's because eBay seems to be my newest addiction lately. Ugh, I know. But I know my limits. Plus, I'm poor to begin with. I mean, have you met me??, I'm a barista.

Speaking of jobs, I'm out there looking. I've been with Tully's for..... it'll be 8 years this summer. Granted, I started out as a manager and have since worked my way backwards. (That's me - always trying to be different!) But I'm bored and if you've talked to me lately, a TAD bit fed up. I've talked about school for 2 years now and have yet to get there. I see my friends with computer jobs paying their bills online and e-mailing me during the day, making double what I make. I admit, Tully's is a fairly easy job. I mean, I get to talk to people all day! But the corporate snobs are getting to me. That and the fact that my hours were cut for two weeks in a row. I'm done.

One word: RESUME

Shawn has helped me put together my resume, got me set up on Monster and gave me the confidence and realization that I can do better. He's the greatest motivator and supporter I could have asked for. A godsend when I needed him the most. He got me interested in school again, told me that it's not as hard as I think and that I could do it; he's a believer. He says HE'S the lucky one...... Sigh. I applied for Bellevue CC - complete online courses that I can do at night while Cole is in bed. I was accepted and should hopefully start this summer!

New things all around. It is, after all, spring !! :)

I registered Cole for kindergarten last Monday..... My little boy. School. I'm tearing up as I'm typing this. He'll be 5 in less than 3 months...... Five !?! He's a bright, articulate, puzzle solving, "how come?", Thomas the Train loving, big-rig driving, fast running, typical 4 year old. He wants to be called "Speedy". He has his good days and bad days, just like we all do. Mostly they've been great! He's mellowed out a little, he plays nicer and he listens more. HE is the best thing I've ever done. Oh what I wouldn't do for that little squirt. But I'm also learning to be more of a hard-ass, so to speak. I know he's a good kid. But I also want to keep him that way and I've let him slide on a few things. Because I'm a single parent? I don't know, but I've got to crack down a bit for his own good. As I've always said, "I'd rather do it now at 4 then at 14."

As for Cole and Shawn...... every interaction becomes easier. I think Cole just becomes jealous of someone else sharing his time. For good reason - he's had me all to himself for the past 3 years. But I can see the two of them slowly working things out already. It'll just take time.

I guess that's it for now. You missed me, didn't you??